hey,it been ages since i last blogalrite,firstly,i would lyk thankz to eff for helpin my blog..k recently,i had a b'dae party..it was my fren b'dae party..it was nice n ya alot of fun..n apart frm tat also there is a lot of stuffs happening..ok,byrite,it was my first time going to ----,those who get it,is gr8 for u.n ya had hell lots fun lah with effy,the sis...arh!!it was fantasticlah..k apart frm all this,recently,there is this guy i'm close with..at first,we are frens..bt his concern towards me is juz more den a fren..n apart frm tat is lyk he will do wat a bf will do to their gf,bt i'm nt his..nt only tat,he had patched back with his gf..i'm happy for him,bt i don't lyk the way he treat me either..i juz hope tat he cld be sincere to his love one n ya,i would really love if we were to become bestfriends,n i mean it.i hope he won't betray my sincereness in this friendship..n i hope he feel the same way to..n juz ignore his little felings for me.i would appreciate it.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
heloooooo......
omg...it had been damn freaking long tym since i had blogging man...miss it...ya,basically i was buzy preparing myself for the o's which had ended quite sometym...den,there was the working life tat came,n it was fun gt to know wif different kind of ppl..from working i know wat fun is n wat life is..well,,currently juz sitting at home n nt doing anything..had to stop working due to unpredictable incident...n now had to take care of the home n also had to teach little bro...hopefully,he wil listen to me..aprt frm all tis,recently had a major conflict wif alot of ppl...n i had to take the decision in my hand..it was nt easy bt nt takin it is harder.i juz dunno lah wat to do anymore.honestly,i gt mental torche.it hurt.everyday i move on wif life wif sadness,dissapointness and hatrednesss in me..therefore,if ppl wanna to talk to me abt wat sad is well i will juz tel tem tat wif this 3 letter word..i always move wif my life.at times i Juz feel tat i want to shut myself away frm this whole..I WANT TO BE ALONE!!!!ARH!!!!!!bt y ppl juz can't let me b alone....i'm tired...I'M DAMN FREAKING TIRED...SO TIRED TO EVEN SMILE.....bt wen i look back at this family tat there is still ppl who love me..is juz hard for me to go away....n nw i was being blame for juz a small thing..i gt scolding n everything...i juz dunno..u know wat...juz stay away frm tis ppl lah mumtaz coz i can't bear anymore hurt...enough...so a hi bye shld b enough....i want to let my heart out...i want to...bt where?cn i juz nt to be at home....?i can't breathe...honestly....cn i juz go away frm here?forever?pls?i'm begging....
hey,,,alrite todae was last gathering wif family before the fasting mth..ntg really much happen..in the morning did nt went to madrasah coz i was tired..so ard 10+ leave hse wif family and went to mustafa..it was fun wif my bros n their jokes and their funniness..dey nvr failed to make me laugh although they can be a pain in the neck..bt i juz love dem.love u guys..fhir and iqbal..love always...ok..den reach home almost 4pm..kinnda of sleepy and went for a a nap and i woke up lyk 6.30pm..den,had to entertain my cuzins n talk a bit wif dem..den i juz feel down..wen come to rayer talking..coz i miss my grandma..i miss her..so much...tis is juz life..i had only 1 wish..one day the Truth will b reveal abt everything..abt me n my life...idk,y i'm lyk tis..bt smtg for sure i'm goin' to strive to the end..insyaallah..i cried and i juz ....(sigh)...idk wat will happpen to my family if i wil to go frm this world...you know wat,i've gt this srange feelings tat i will be gone soon..idk y..bt if it is my tym to go,i nid to.right?the only thing tat i fear for is my death..bt b4 i go..i juz wish tat the truth wil be reveal..(tears streaming down).or maybe,my goneness, will help to reveal the truth..idk..ntg is clear..bt ya,tis is life..let ppl talk wat dey want,if dey hate me let is be,i ain't any angel afterall...its true i'm bad.. i mean its hurt bt tis is the fact..i cannot c anithing in myself,positive i mean...the only person who cn understand myself the best is me..there r something in me,tat nt all ppl know bt i know it alone..i wish miracle could happen bt i know only myself tat cld make the miracle to happen...bt i will strive for my best n i would nvr give up..i may have fail in certain things,bt tat doesn't mean i've failed in life..life has to go on..
Thursday, August 13, 2009
hey,it had been some tym since i last blogging..finally prelim is ending..2morow is only sci paper 1(chem/bio).had nt been really study through it..monday going to have my english o level oral...the tym flys so fast...i know rite nw is juz hard for me to say anything..well,ard 2 more mths is the big thing..my o'level..something for sure is that i will strive till the end..bt i muz admit something tat rite now my life realy suckz lah..seriously,wen u stay at ppl hse n nt your hse is different..i felt so ashamed lah..bt wat to do..tis is life..i hope tat on day all of my probs will go away..seriously..n i know tat i the only one tat cn make this differences in my life...rite nw,i am confused wif my feelings,i know i love hym,i guess i love hym to deeply,tat it hurts me wen he is in pain..i'm trying to get over hym since rite nw he is in a relationship wif another person..it hurts me alot.i mus admit this..tis is the biggest probs i'm trying to get rit of ..bt if he is happy wif he's relationship,den i shld juz be happy 4 hym i guess eventhough deep inside me i'm suffering..it hard to let go,bt nt lettin hym go of my life is harder..y do i had to love hym?if only he knows how deeply i love hym,i guess tat would be great..bt its ok..i wanted to gif up on hym due to his attitude and all,bt i juz can't..i feel weird if he does nt talk to me and i feel happy that if he talks to me..gosh..i don't know if he has any feelings for me,?wat a life..effy was saying tat c'mon i cannot gif up,i know i can change the fate of my famly ..bt for a fact is tat the thing tat makes me move everyday is by accomplish my Os soon..i would miss my fwen of course,,bt tat life.effy thank u so much for being there for me always and my others fwen...effy,i love u thank u for being my backbone,dear..i will always remembered wat u says..i'm juz so fortunate to have someone lyk u by myside..thank u so much,effy...
yemoseyo...
wow!!it had been quite sometime have nt update my blog..there a lot of thing happen..after 4 tym of collapsing den i'm downwith body cramp..still on recoovering and rite now i.m lyk so stress with my studies because i've nt start a solid revision....wat a life..bt is alrite..I'm prepared for the woorst for my prelim..i muz be mentally and emotionally prepared...no problem yet with life..bt i think problems are finding me..aniways,tats all i cn say for nw...
sayonara...
assalamualaikum,,
alrite,todae had a long dae...reach home at 5.50pm..juz bath and solat asar..alhamdullilah no need to 'qada'' zohor coz hav prayed in sch all ready..well ends oral practice at abt 4.45pm..den before tat i was lyk doin kemas2 the cluzroom(arranged the table,sweep the floor and also the cupboard.) it was fun...den after tat,the seven of us.(liyana,hafizah,hidayu,aishah,aqasah,fitri and me)..den,i came our the idea of cleaning the cluz wall,,den we play wif the soap and all..it was fun..it is unforgetable..tell u wat,we potential cleaner..hahaha.k ltr part of the cleaning,fit went to take the mop and mop our corridor,,honestly,it was so damp fun..this is so memorable..we gt take pics also..hahah..bt todae in sch was fun,nt tiring..den i'm puasa sunat regab..insyallah...den nw i am ok..onli tat need to do more revision...tat's all for now....waiting for magrib...
life is about sacrification..
hey....
wat up? todae dae was normal..yesterdae came back till 11.20 pm n went to bed ard 12 am..i guess..well actually wen for a businees talk..name 'uptrendto u'.honestly, i advice u ppl to join tis business..ntg to worry..i'm joinning soon..apart frm all tis,todae had tis dedications to your fwen or your neighbour.i sent it to hidayu and she was lyk touch and she also did it for me..den the both of us hugged..hehe..touching moments..alrite,he don't really talk much wif me..n cn c trying to go for a conversation,bt hack care leh..arh 15 more days to prelim..revision had nt start..damn..i muz push myself..after sch,wen to inter wif effy n my aunt..do the cpf thingy..all some others stuff..ate at kfc and reach home ard 5.30pm..tired..den at dbs,saw one of the teachers frm my sch,i gues wif his fiance..den he was lyk shy2 and he was lyk nt holding and all..den i juz feel lyk lauhing.i gues he told his fiance tat i'm a student frm his sch..coz i'm wearing the sch uniform..den the fiance try to look at me..lyk toleh2 belakang lyk tat..i was lyk arh wat ever..luckily,he did nt teach me...hahaha..wat a day..after tis,gonna to pack bag n try to start wif the schedule of my revision,so muz start...
life has to move on although it seem hard..bt this is life.
IF LIFE IS NEVER PERFECT,IF IT IS PERFECT,IT WILL NEVER BE AS INTERSTHING AS IT IS.
hola..
man..it seems ages i.ve not blogged...arh... i so miss blogging..well my mt o level oral and written paper had went well..alhamdullilah..actually,,i love a guy that use to love me by giving hints..i think i was to late den wen i kno i love hym...wen i thought i was over hym..things happened den i gt to know tat i.m nt overhym..wat a life..i will juz pray for his wellness...and i juz muz accept the fact tat we aren't meant to be togather..nw,buzy with school work and all..i know wat to do in future tat is to be a nurse..basically,i juz want to help other pppl....i know tat effy will support me..tat's for sure..praying hard,to be selected for the interview..alot of things had been happpening,bt i know,it wil get over sooner or later..wat ever it is,i juz want someone lyk Gu Jun Pyo ..those who watch the tv series of boys before flower,u guys shld know who i meant..i juz love hym..i love evrything abt hym in that movie..he love a person,he love deeply,it hurts hym wen the person he loves is hurt..it hurt me wen the guy i love hurt,i juz wish to tell hym i love you!!! bt tat will nvr happened...well,tats for now,i try to update regularly,..i miss hym so much,despite of he is so close to me...sigh...alrite..bye-bye..
wealth and standard does not matter,
looking at something from the same place, and see the same thing,
is all we need.
hola...hey it has been almost two months that i have not blog..so ya..things had been happening to me..day after day..after one musibah anothers comes..wat do ppl really things of themselves?for me,i've run out of tears..n i know my tears are not worth for all this kind of things..mid year finally over todae..had a hard tym through mid year..aniwayz,malay o level is in 10 days tym..(xclude todae)..so nid to focus on it..then 2 weeks of solid bridging..so i offically close sch in 3 weeks tym..is alrite to be stress now..but rite nw,i juz pray,tat ppl will stop doin' things to me...tats all i cn do..i know all this are hurdles tat i nid to pass through..4 sure...it is very painful...i mean it..june holidaes gonna to b tight...afterall,i know tat my Os is my highlight of the year n i know can't use the computer at "my hse"(offically my aunt hse),swore nt to touch it again..coz a disaster had happen to me b'coz of the com..nw i cn get to update onli in my cuzin hse..so if i don't update frequently..faham2 jer lah kk..well,rite nw..or rather until now i'm still physically, mentally and emotionally tired..more to emotionally and mentally tired.Headache can be cure by panadols in a miniteHeartache can't be cure by anithin' except yourself and your faith..nt by minite it takes ages...
alrite...
2dae had been a long dae man..k in class was ntg actually,juz lyk normal..k durin' ncc..4 the last tym..ws lyk very touchin'..i did cry n keep on huggin' everyone ard me..kinnda of regret did nt treasure the ppl ard me..i guess i juz nid to appreciate others more..bt i don't know hw?wat a life..had a nice royal chocolate cake n coke..had a dun party n majority of the NCOs were cryin' i juz miss dem..onli Allah knows hw i feel..i did hate NCC bt nw..i'm missin' it..i gues i learnt another thing..apart frn endurence..i also learnt n remember tis phrase or rather saying...'do not see someone or something with your naked eyes,bt see it with your heart'these word teaches me alot n i will try tu apply tis words in my daily life..reach home ard 7pm n had a bath,pray n den starts on delayed hmwk n starts preparation 4 2morow as well as for AIN'S b'dae...lookin' 4ward to see her..ain..hapi 16th b'dae..
k lastly,i would lyk to say..i miss those who had been together with me 2dae..durin' ncc..
n i created this phrase.."every togetherness,will always come to an end..is either with itself or seperate by death"...n life nid to move on..once u loss a seconds,u will nvr get it back...tats 4 sure..For the sake of time,for real, human beings are always in a loss..
hola..
k 2dae was fine n very fine i mean..i somehow hyperventilate abit..so ya..ntg interesthing had fun as usual with fwens..with dayu n qasha..ketawer tk blh angs..n 2dae oral exam was lyk okok..bt i'll make it as a lesson learnt man...
tat all 4 nw...
hola..
k 2dae did nt realli play soccer..went to madrasah..n eventualli had a discussion abt 11 april..things nid to b settle...yesterdae nite went out wif faiz 2 popular and get my stationary..so ya..bumb into 2 of my fwens..rather saw tem..had a walk back home..n yesterdae mornin' was lyk realli fun ..i mean after a long tym..i n my family..2gather wif lakhen(my aunt) we were lyk jokin' ard and seriously the dae starts so gd..n in the afternoon went 4 ugama @ omar's hse..it was fine..2dae gt ntg much to say,coz my cuzin did nt cum..lookin' 4ward for the holidae on june...2gather goin' out wif fwens...
tat's all f nw..
hey...
k 2dae was lyk the end of the week lyk finally..k thinkin' of joggin' 2morow mornin' and wanna to settle all my hmwk 2dae u c...k nw i know tat i';m lyk 80% get over hym already..n i'm sure i can fight this feelings away..so i've ask 'mira natasha'abt our song..he said it is in progress..a bit more.k 2dae was lyk normal and all...was hapi tat 2dae is the last day of the week..and i juz hope tat i can complete my geog project tomorow n i nid to do some revisions..tat all 4 nw...
hey..
k wat a dae..suddenly feel tat tis week is lyk goin so fast and all..u c..i'm lyk so stress..2dae had a long dae in sch n all..n gues wat after our sch hours we had an el remedial..u c..n instead of our el teacher we gt our principal..arh..k bt i muz said tat she is very funni n hyper..n kinnda lyk a cartoon..i mean seriously ..k go home had some rest..after praying magrib..i did my hmwk n all..actualli some part of it ..den ppl start messin' up with me..there is this one freak in this hse..n sadly enuff he is fated to be my younger cuzin..k he is in sec 2..k fine i understand tat tis is nt my hse ..n it will nvr be..he has always condem me n all..n i juz to tired to entertain freak lyk hym..he think tat he is so big enuff tat can outrite everyone..oh pls!!!do u tink tat i shld help someone tat nvr do gd to me?nope..tat the answer..all tis while i dd help hym..bt nt todae..he wanted by tumbdrive badly for his work and obviously i don't giv a damn..n b'coz of tis my bro nid to go to the popular to get the tumbdrive..my bro is lyk so the ..i don't know wat to say..i feel sorry for hym..b'coz of me he nid to go through all this trouble..wat a sis i am?k ppl juz wanna to tel u tat u shld be grateful tat u r livin' on your own hse ...since young i nvr feel havin' own hse n own room..nt to mention a love frm a father...n everything that i do ...ppl will start pickin' on me n qs me..bt dey nvr ask me hw i can be lyk tis?so juz treasure your home..hw small it is..u r livin' in your own hse..despite of 16 yrs livin' in tis hse..other ppl hse will nvr become yours..hw long it is ..the feeling is different..everytime u want to do smtg,ppl will qs your rights..until nw i don't know wat my rights is..i was juz wonderin' wen will i and my family hav our own hse..?juz wonderin',i pity my mum,as well as my 2 younger bro..i really pity tem n love tem..b'coz of tem i gt the strength to survive...if nt i don't know if i'm still breathin' nw...
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
k 2dae basically ntg much..i did talk to effy.i'm juz wonderin' how my song goin'on?2dae is lyk so borin'..nw i slowly get rit of hym in my mind and heart..and i can't be lazy in sch...yesh..tat the spirit gurl..k tat all 4 todae..no hmwk..yipee..
haish...
wat a long day..got home @6.40pm..k 2dae was offically my last trainin'..i now i miss ncc lyk hell..n the NCOs and the sec 1s..k i admit i do hate ncc bt now i tends to lyk it..i guess i shld juz treasure the ppl ard me more..k apart frm tis 2dae in the mornii'i was feelin' so down..n so called emoish n all..den after recess i was ok..after tellin' hezron n xue yi..dey r so catin'..thankz a lot guys..hezron is lyk mira natasha'..the way he talk n thinks..one thing abt hezron he have a mature thinkin'..i lyk his thinkin'..it is easier to talk to ppl lyk tat..k..den..i was ok..and lead life as per normal..bt still miss hym..n effy...i gues i nid to take things ...not so serious n don't think to much..
k tats all the highlight for todae...
haish!!
wat a dae...firstly wen to sch was ok..bt suck without specs...ya u c..den end the day was ok..after tat wen for guitar practice with the guys u c..n dey really make my day..with dem for 2 hrs..'mira natasha' was lyk hearin' out my problems of the guy i lyk n all..apart frm tat..he lyk help me with the tune n all..wanna go jammin' with tem if possible..'summary'was lyk with his classmate wen i arrive so after he send the girl..n for awhile i was tellin hym abt wat had happened to me n all..he advice me if can focus on study..den we did talk abt our future study education and all..dey rockz..n ya he was lyk hey i lyk your song n all..so ya tat was the highlight of the day..n i juz nid to get over the feeling of lovin' hym(nt 'mira natasha' nor 'summary')..den study..by rite doin' hmwk..n tat all....
bt rite nw i'm still stress u c...
hmmm....
assalamualaikum...
k firstly,i'm nt lookin 4ward to 2morow...arh..sch is back..been buzy through out the week with assignment and all... k bt 2morow can be said that i wil hav a long day...k 2dae there a lot of tings happenin',firstly wanted to go to my religious cluz bt could nt wake up..ya,i so called gt my offical holidae is yesterday..n my sch ends on sundae instead of fridae..so wake up,read one stories,frm island voices...k den wen to play soccer,it was a suck u c...k apart frm tat i do smtg to help my cuzin..n i gt a motivation todae frm someone..k thankz for carin' for me..nw i nid to put aside my feelings for hym u c..o level..i don't know if he loves me bt juz let allah decide everything...nid to love my family more...tat my mission... n 2morow meetin' with 'summary'...k i don't know..bt juz enjoy in sch....n guitar rockz...
waalaikummussalam....
yo people..k let me satrt with thursday..well,i had motivational camp n all.it was more to theory but we had a lot of fun u c...i mean no regrets goin to this camp..mindchamp rockz!!!k now we go on fridae..k it was the last day..we had blindfold and last time managing the summary of the workshop..n we had video about our three days camp..well,tat moment was lyk so touching..den we went to the grand finale..well,Y.E.A.H imerged as the runner up n THE GREAT ONES is the champion!!congrats!! to both rteamws...n AWERSOME.. u rockz man!!we had a great tym togetehr..i will miss the trainees,paulene and irene..they rockz my wurld...here r some of the pis tat i gt to take with tem....
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
hey...
yeaterdae..was lyk frm fierah sucre hse..overniting there coz on mondae latenoon we went out to study n all...k den gt to rush frm pasiris to sch..went home to change first n gt into appropriate attire..went for geog remedial..9am till 10am..dedn went to help to do the banner for presidential candidate(sc)...went home n ard 1.30pm...n went out with my Ns fwens...coz we gave staz a b'dae party surprise @east coast pit 54 area d..well we hagd a l;ong walk frm area c till area e....i9 n faris walk first followed by naq n syaz..den arrive there..i play with the guitar n some sand and all..u c..den the 4n3 malay guys(acap,haizad,sharazi,azhar,akasah n 2 more i don't know their name..)bt they were crazy.. dey was lyk callin' me ...'mumtazji'..they loves to disturb me..bt is alrite ...dey r juz jokin u c...bt it was fun..we took pic n all..went back ard 6.45pm...all of us...took 31 2gather...n ya..in the bus also we will lyk havin' fun n all...walk back home woth naq.heera.faris.acap n 1 more guy..throughout the dae can be say quite fun,borin'tirin'..yape..it rockz..here r the pic tat we took of..
yo!!!
alrite..wat uo ppl.?hpe u guys doin fine...hey 2dae gt motivational camp or rather a talk..man..i thought it will be suckz man..bt turn out to be it was damp fun..i keep on laughing n laughing...learn alot of things to do and all..k den gt divided into grp..the name is 'awesome"..ya!! AWESOME WE ROCKZ....k 'awesome' is made up of ,me,fareesha,rozlina,fakrudin,kerrie,marlene,natasha,delfina n one 2 of the gurl i forgot their name...
k it was really fun..despite of it is frm 8am-4pm...i still enjoy it..den stght away after i came back,i pray.....n i sleep till 6.45...
k den work up eat n den start to do online stuff basically the iconnexion eork n stuff..n blogging..till here den for now....
yo!!!! wow!!!it wil b damn buzi week sia!!!k 2dae is my onli free day..frm 2morow onwards gt to go to sch gt sc meetin',geog reme.,n bio reme..stress man..hmwk still stacks on the table...wat a life(sigh)frustrated....den gt motivational talk frm wed till fridae...sianna...online assignment somemore...i don't know man...k actualli i wanted to blog abt my camp which was frm last dae of sch till sundae...it was ncc camp..k it was tiring n alot of things happen..den i was s4..n it nt easy becumin' s4..k i juz sleep 4 3 hrs for 2 nites..i'm prone to it..n apart frm tat..i think wer became bonded..n had fun..had soem chance to interact with the part As...k goin hom..had a AAR...at a void deck..n went hom all the way s with akasah..juz bonded with hym..so ya tats all...ntgh much..alot of personel..thing..ya i'm sloeepy..chaou...
hey....
k 2dae in sch..i feelin very dwn..i don't know y..k..den hezron was lyk askin me if i'm ok or nt..n obviously is a no...i'm missing alot of ppl..guess wat i'm lyk missin hym day by day u c..i don't know y..i still nid to comfirm with my feelings..kk i'm missing my 'dear' n 'baby'.kindda of stress with things cumin' up n all..apart frm tis is also i'm being moody..k i've complete with my hmwk n after tis i nid to revise poa 4 2morow test man...ok lah..insyaallah,i can make it man...finish packin up 4 camp..n tis is the twelveth camp i'm goin' through out my 4 years of secondary sch life..nt lookin' forward to it..cumin back on sundae noon...k wateve it is...no pain no gain man..i will strive till the end..is ok if i don't hav tym 2 enjoy with fwens n family...i will do my bez..sori guys..if i had been so buzi till i 4get abt u guys k...i understand u guys also under tis preassure n all..bt it alrite..is juz a matter of 7 more mth..c'mon,,we can make it..ya!!all the bez ppl..!!i love you!!chiayo!!!til here for nw...
Yesteday is our past,today is our present,tomorrow is our future... never to let your past detake your present and future....make your past a lesson learn...
-MUMTAZ-
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
k 2dae was kindda relaxin since i gt no hmwk.2dae so called a test day as half a day was on test..so ya..den after tat i went to zaf hse thinkin' of cn get the black shoe frm edah..bt tat edah was like gek sim...she go n use the shoe to sch for a fact tat i've told her i'm cumin' there..(sigh)k den eat n after asar i went home with a bike..by edah's dad...k n ya in sch seem to be "quiet" due to someone nt in sch...finally,i get peace bt can c the different if he is in sch or nt..n he is actually a nice guy n all bt he loves to irritates ppl ...bt he's ok overall...no offence.. bt wateve it is i enjoy myself n 2dae also i gt a shockin news frm HIM(another person)..so ya..,i tink tat all.for 2dae ntg much..bt i tink i'm missing alot of ppl...
c ya..baybeh..astalavista
hola...
well, 2dae in sch was fun and all..i did nt cum 4 the math quiz so who cares rite..after sch,hav cca,n i n nad lyk slackin all the way..seriously..i'm nt lookin' forward to this year ncc camp..which will be tis fridae,n weekend..n once again my weekend is 'eaten'.(sigh)wat to do...hey,bt i can't twait to step down frm cca ..yipee..last den a mth man...k at home is quite dull n my younger cuzin gettin on my nerve..bein' the eldest is nt easy man..ntg happen,bt i was laughing lyk hell when bal starts changing place 2 sit bside dayu..n dayu were lyk wat the hell...n i laugh bcoz of dayu's 'sufferin' lol...seriously..n after tat he was lyk be sad n all..sulkin..bt who cares..b it was funi man..seriously..n after cca brad pitt called me askin abt our el so called project..n he called while i otw go hom,n he sound so lyk rushin..(no offence)k wateva..i've do a bit revision on geog,chem n also lit..so mumtaz all the best 4 all the TAs n tset 2morow..k lah till here den.....
2dae in sch was fine n all.onli tat 2dae is my first tym late in whole entire life of my education years man!! i am proud to b late..actualli i'm late coz i try to search for my shoes,n after 10 min of searchin' i juz realise tat i lost my shoe..wat a pity..by rite,my shoes is old u know..whoever stole it won't b happi 4 the rest of his/her life...k as per normal iqbal was lyk noisy..he juz can't resist the temptation of keep his mouth shut man..den 2dae 'brad pit' n 'paramore' is nt here..dey went datin i gues..lol..juz jokin...2dae i guess lyk very fast lyk tat..n after sch rite..gt s.s remedial..n nw seriously i understand s.s kindda of deeper...k den in sch we had a 2 period of free period n we were lyk talkin abt our sec2 days..i,fit,bal,dayuy..2gather with acay,lynn n qasah..den were lyk laughin' at our crazyness n those swet memorise u c..it was fun recallin it back man....(sigh) if i could turn the clock back i would love to....k lah tillhere den...
my dearest baby boy n baby gurl...my lover of life..gosh!!wat a dae man!k firstly my week in sch was alrite n okok....kk then i gt a maulud(celebratin' prophet b'dae),tis weekend,on fridae i n ika was lyk helpin out a bit..nw the story begins.yesterdae..well..in the mornin..6.30 lyk tat i gt a msg n ika wants 2 go to poly due to smtgh..so i gt change n meet ika at her void deck n of we go 2gather with raqeef n baby..o ya..i gt their pic..n after tat..we went to geylang,ika gettin her tudung then we went to cs 2 get our aunt an mp3..bt turn out the shop was close..bt den i bump into ika's idol..k he seriously gain weight n after tat rite..ika was hyperventelate at seein hym n i mizz someone so much..jealous sey ika bump into her idol..i don't..k we walk back hom efrm cs..den i reach home lyk almost 1pm..den i hurry cover all my revision for my test well,is lit..k i hav nt study for s.s man...after studying..when 2 my uncle hse helpin out on the setin' of the table n chairs..n it was rainin' very heavily man...after tat..go home ard 5 pm help my aunt doin' the kuih n jelly for 2dae occasion..i went to mcp to get the stuff n bump into khat n eesha,studyin'..den..after magrib n i'm done with my pray n all..went down again to my uncles hse n help 2 coook n all.well,it is @ the first level .n we really cook in big pot n all..in i really enjoy myself..2gather with my uncles n cuzin..n i was there until 3am..by rite it is suppose to b until 6 am..we nid to take care of the food..so we went home n 2 dae woke up @ 8..getting ready 2 go there..was very tiring..n i was piss off by some ppl..n i hardly open my eyes..ard 4pm went home to sleep awhile until 5.45pm,den help in the cleanin' of the big pot n put it back..den my uncle was complementin me ..n i'm thankful.bt i really enjoy the cleanin up n all..after tat,@ 7+pm take raqeef frm ika n all..n went to padang telling my uncle n my guys cuzin tat joinin dem in soccer..quickly went home get change n pray n went back to the field..we play barely ard 1 hr..n after tat,i fhir,nazrul nazran was lyk playing basketball n hav a lot of laughter n all,nazrul was being lol'A man..den come back home @ 8.35pm..bath n gettin ready for sch..btw,i don't hav tym to do my hmwk..i'm damp sleepy n tired @ tis moment of tym..tis year maulud quite borin bt it is beter den previous years..k nw i'm bloggin n after tis mayde eat abit n off 2 bed..i seriously don't feel lyk goin 2 sch man!!so till here den..
alrite...
2dae was fine..well in the morni' i thought tat the person sat bside me is absent..wat a relief..bt turn out to b ..tat person came n he purposely came late..lyk wth...k den it was ok n p.e was fine....bt tat tym we lyk buyin food in the canteen(after p.e is our recess tym) n ryan tan was lyk shouting 2 us of nt 2 buy the food due to we r 8 minit earlier...all of us were piss off....eh tell hym wateve k...k..so far quite stress with the school n all...n i'm lyk don't know wat up with my heart..apart frm tis...we had poa remedial abt adjustment on final ac..nw i really understand deeper...k i'm done with my chem hmwk n memorizin' work 4 2 test 2morow...k..i did cry juz now 4 a touching scene i can't forget it..ya..tats all..i miz affy and imm....
tat all for nw...
k todae in sch was fine onli abit of sad yar..apart frm tis i really nt tired bt stress abit due to 2 test tomorow..normal n usual thingy..n i didn't join in the master parade afterall ..arh who cares..juz finish ngaji n gonna to do homework n learnt for 2 morow test man..(sigh)yar..2dae i was slackin frm NCC (sadly enuff my "cca") with nadia den a sec 1 guy was lyk tellin us lyk a grp of guys smokin n all..n seriously he look so panicked lyk as if there is somebody fainted or wat..so we inform the dm..n yar obviously they r caught..kindda of pity them coz they look decent man!!wat i know i so nt in a mood now n kinnda of stress man...i nid someone by my side now ...i really nid someone...affy,im...gosh..i nid u ...i miz u guys...(sigh) wat a dae...
yo!!!
k it had been a dry weekend...it does nt even feel lyk a sundae...n seriously...i miz my "baby" so much..it has been lyk a month we did nt see each other.(sigh)i called,bt no answer wondering y?may everything be fine.2dae wasn't a usual sundae..i mean 2dae was borin n dry..k wake up @ 6.15am n went to my religious class which is lyk @ B.R(bedok reserv.)n end at 11.00 am..it was fun at the religious class..had some laughter n all..den bump into farok..my dearest cuzin..he was funni n kinnda of cute..lol! reach home ard 12 noon..i guez i can hav some "make up" sleep but neh..instead need to help out at my hse{those who know wat i'm talkin is good}..kinnda of tired n tat hse seem so inorganised n all..bt with the initiative of my mum,(love her),2gather with my bro n my uncle n my aunt,we help 2 settle the hse..it was kindda of sucess..i did "wash" the toilet..it was fun..i mean it seriously man!!k rite after tat,i help my cuzin with her assignment..abt poa..love it man!!nt playin soccer 2dae..i don't know y bt smtgh for sure i really MIZ PLAYING SOCCER MAN!!!GOSH!!U WON'T KNOW HOW I MIZ IT MAN!!tym kinnda of pack n all..gues wat i did nt even touch on my hmwk at all..congrats..mumtaz..keep up the bad work..n u wil "pass" Os...(sigh)i can't hav tis attitude man...c'mon gurl wake up!!!..i know i can do it so does everyone...now bloggin n prepare to face a new week ahead...
Thursday, February 26, 2009
k ppl 2dae was alot of crazy stuff happen..k firstly,in a mornig a guy frm e2 ask me if i lyk his fwen?lol!!wat a rondom qs..k apart frm tat,i n my fwens we got caught of bringing up food to the class,n 'atan' was lyk tat day u were good gurl...k i let u go...lol!! b4 at,i n dayu..hahahah..were in the toilet..hahahah..n we actualli called each other n we were laughing lyk hell...i cannot forget todae man...lol!!!those who r involve will know y i keep on laughing..so ya tats the highlight for 2dae...yipee,we r going 2 cum to the end of the week..yesh!!!
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
alrite,todae there's ntg much to do in sch..our pe was relaxing onli run 2 round around the school..n do some warm up and all....geog was fun coz mr.koh wasn,t in sch....yipee....it was our free period...khat,really lyk make me laugh lyk hell tellin abt her funny facts joke n all...the chem ta1 was fine n english was fun coz we juz go through our ta1 corrections...assembly,was so bored with mr.barton...somehow i don.t lyk hym...donno leh y!!!bt who cares rite..den a very short sc meeting...when home,settle the homework study for bio test...n now i'm lyk also goonna to study bio...all the bez mumtaz!!!hahaah..lol!!!
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
k todae i did not go too sch coz my body was so weak n hav nt recovered frm the camp..apart frm this i also lose my voice n i hardly talk..do hav headache n all..k 2morow there is chem ta1 nn i'm lyk gonna to study now..todae i made a cake togather withe fhariz n my aunt..it was a success!!!!k tis is the first tym i bake a cake...yeee to me...lol!!apart frm doin cake,i juz sit at home..well,,in the morning omar msg me n askin abt love poem suddenly...he disturb frm my sleep...den todae i made a love poem since he want it..i did it on the spot...it goes lyjk tis..
My eyes is the reflection of my soul
It will never tell me the untruth,
Whenever i see my eyes in the mirror as a whole.
It is filled with love and truth
You may not know my sincereness,
And my love for you,
It is not because of happiness,
It is all because of me and you.
Today will be the day,
The day i will say,Sincerely,
I love you.dearly.
is tis sweet ?i don't know man...k lah now i know omar is attached n may he find he happiness with her..i'll always pray for him...
that's all 4 now..
Monday, February 23, 2009
hola...
it been a while i did nt update man!!ya..actualli last week it was the camp week ..it was so much fun,,so much boring n so much tiring..seriously..until todae i still feelll the tiredness in me..n guess wat i juz lyk lost my voice iit turn to be very rough n i hardly talk..now i know the experience of nt being aable to talk...so sad...n 2dae i was lyk so moody n keep quite in class coz i.'m lyk ...moodty due to smtgh..n gt no voice man..bt is alrite..k lah until here k...
astalavista...
hola!!!!
kk..2dae i lyk so hapiii...i n a few of my fwens we are playin' tis game since valentines is cumin' n all....is actuallii we need to hav a bf or rather a date tis valentines if nt we gt punished...gt lah is juz between us..afterall,my date is somebody...ya..somebody...
..k n all my fwens was lyk tat is lyk so nt fair of you....they was lyk u gt an handsome guy u know..n tat is undenial..4 me he is cute afterall he is seriously cute !!!!omg!!!!...i don't know man!!!i'm i havin crush on hym????i don't know ....ya,basically tat is wat i wanna to say...
helloooo...
ppl 2dae i was lyk so tired..apart frm physically...i also tired mentally n emotionally due to some ppl... especially a "noise pollution" beside me..such a pain in the neck..arhHHhhhhhh!!!!!geram giler sia!!!!!he really want to get it frm me sia....y on earth i know hym sia!!stress gyler sia!! ngan org giler mcm dier tu...
alu tk nk maki2 arh carik doser jer..insyallah bsk aku nk tell hym off arh..4 heaven sake sia tis year is my Os sia...(sigh)takleh angkat kau!!! tarik,seret pilul pun tk leh sia...he is such a pain in my neck!!! o nk uat baik pandai arh...all guys the same...,man!!!aper pun 2morow i'm gonna to ckp habis2 arh...
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hey..
juz came back frm changi beach go swimmin wif cuzin..well,6.30am lyk tat we had wake up ready n we did it 4 our dearest atuk,which has been awhile since we last went to the beach...followed by tat,we all were lyk swiming frm the reaching tym until 1pm lyk tat...apart frm tat frm 1pm until 3pm wee were lyk so bored n all....i actuallii intended to go hom..bt towards the end was a great fun as i get to swim wif the guys n is lyk way further frm the shore man!! it was damn fun..bt we had to get up coz we nid to change n all..den nw i've arrive back at hom n eventuallii bloggin n all...k lah until nw n after tis god wills we r gonna to go n eat outside leh...tc pplll...
emm..how shall i start..k by rite nw i'm supposed to be at my hubby pit bt i can't do to sum probss..bt wateve it is b..i hope u enjoyed kk..den,i was a bit dissapointed tat is my cluz did nt win for the cluz deco while other cluz tat r nt prettyy won!!so angry!!! my hardwork n the 9 of us ..did nt make it....!!bt it alrite..secondly abt tis one guy..the name is muhammad iqbal bin abdul rahim...kk he is a rugby captain ,under national team..arh who careas abt it anyway..the thing is tat i've made a wrong choice my pitying hym n the whole cluz of askin hym to sit beside me..he is such a noise pollution!!bt i'm glad tat todae is fridae n also there is an extention of 2 day holss,i so gonna..nt to miz hym..n gonnan 2 enjoy my hols to the fullest..apart frm tat..he juz now ask me wheather i love tis one guy by the name opf Qi You..by rite qi you is a nice guy n yah we r close n tats all..bt gt tis one person(girl) make a slander of me n tel qi you tat i love him..tat was so bull shit lah..i hav told off tis person to tell qi you the truth n great she did it n all..alrite nw i n qi you we r ok..how eva,i don't know how tis matter came to iqbal..i was shock n now iqbal gt the whole picture wrong so does some other ppl..i was so piss off!!!gosh!! damn!!!i seriously don't know wat to do man...bt i don't know weather tis ting is gonna to stop or nt..!!i juz don.t know.. seriously....
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
hey,2dae in sch was ok n all..bt had geog test n i know i lyk don't really scored 4 it..den last minite got sc meeting...suckz man!! bt luckyly it is juz half an hour..on top of tat ,i had a new classmate,ho jian hong hezron a.k.a brad pit..he kindda of fun n funni..den luckyly 2dae quite relaxing after revising chem n bio 4 2morrow test n all...n 2morow will b along day end sch at 4.30pm earlist..bt its ok man...tats all for now...btw,i miss by hubby,n baby man..!!
astalavista...
holaa!!!
well,yesterdae i went to trl 2 do my revision as wel as my hmwk...wif my younger bro n sis(cousin)...wel,in the middle of it..i suddenly miss fir..a guy n i reallli lyk wanna to talk wif him n followed by tat i terserrempak wif my baby,ima..baru abis sch...den 2dae i went to madrasah n all..den i jumpe my baby..pat my void deck...the present was so sweet n memorable...will always b 2gatyher till death seperate us apart,byy...i treasure it dear...
2dae was the happiest moment in my life..2dae i'm exactly 16..yesh..get to watch NC16 SHOWS..HAHAHHA...BT TAT IS NT MY REAL INTENTION..WELL WAT I GT WAS MANY ADVANCE WISHES,N 12 MIDNITE MY DARLIN' WERE LYK WISHIN ME N I WAS SO SLEEPY..DEN IN THE MORNIN STRAIGHT AWAY AFTER I WAKE UP..I GOT A MSG FRM FAIZAH WISHING ME HAPPI B'DAE TAT WAS SO SWEET OF HER..I MET AIN,SYAZ,HEERA N NAQ ALL OF THEM WERE LYK WISHIN ME N AIN REALLI GAVE ME A MEMORABLE GIVE..IT MAY B SMALL BT ITS MEMORABLE DARL...THEN ALL THE WISHES FRM MY FWEN CAME..DEN WE ALSO HAD A NEW CLASSMATE HE IS QUITE CUTE N HE SAT BESIDE ME..ARH!!!OMG!!!KK..DEN GT BDAE GIVES N ALL DEN TOWARDS THE END OF THE DAE WAS THE MOST MEMORABLE THINGY...I GT SO CALLED BASHED UP N THE CLASS ACTUALLII SANG 4 ME A B'DAE SONG:HAPPY B'DAE FRM 4E1 FEATURING WEI REN THE WUSHU WARRIOR REMIXING...IT WAS SO FUN N THEY NEVER LET ME DOWN N ALL..THEY MAKES ME KEEPP ON SMILING WIF YI JIE THINKS HE'S A SUPERSTAR..MAN!! DEY R CRAZY MAN!!...AFTER THAT I GT HOM N BATHE N CHANGE N WENT TO MY APPOINMENT AT hpb,WELL,IT WAS FOR MY SPINAL CHECKIN'I HAD X-TRAY N ALHAMDULLIAH(THANK ALLAH)I WAS DISCHARGE,NW MY BACKBONE IS STRAIGHT..TIS ALL..REALLI SUCH A MEMORABLE THINGY..I WAS ALSO BEIN SABOH BY MY CUZINS WEN DEY ACTUALLII THROW WATER BOMB AT ME N ALL..MY LITTLE CUZINS OBVIOUSLI...I LOVE TEM..WELL,DEY R SAIRA,FARHAT N HAZIQ...WHAT MAKES ME MUCH MORE HAPPIIER IS THAT MY HUBBY ACTUALLI GT A JOB IN ON THE HOSPITAL IN S'PORE..N HE REALLI DIDI'NT ASPECT TIS...TAT FAST..I ALWAYS BE BY YOUR SIDE MAN!!!N NW I'M LYK DOIN MY LIT HOMIIWORKII..N HOPEFULLY TO END SOON..SEE YA DEN..
WAALAIKUMMUSALAM..
assalamualAikum...
it's been awhile i didn't update yar..the startin orf the sch was so stress full wif alot of homiworki..Well,i was pack with the sch work,,n also don't get tym for my dearest baby n hubbyy...i realli miss u guys..nt onli tat, on top of all that i actuallii when to NP n SP during their open hse.It was so much fun in SP,2gether talkin to their lecturer..a 'rocker' hahahha..a 'dramatic''tk blh angs!! a 'deaf"..Seriouly.alll of them,realli make our day..I went there wif far,dayu n nad n all of them were lyk non- stop laughing man!!The worst is me lah...That was the day wif SP..followed by tat,was the O level result...well,,i was a bit down on tat dae as my cuzin get quite a low pt bt i'm sure there still hope..n another of my cuzin did well after his second tym takin Os..Throughout this week,i fall ill bt didi nt skip sch coz,i juz can't afford to skip sch..apart frm tat.. hmwk comin in nw n then n also i'm a bit stress bt is alrite...it will b 4 juz 888888mthsssssss tat all i nid..No pain,no gain leh!!k i'll continue wif 2dae..................
Saturday, January 3, 2009
hastalavista..
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
k it has been awhile since i've blog..so ya...hey btw,yesterdae i was out wif my darling..so we were lyk goin to the library and also borrowed some books basically abt psycology..well,those books really interesthing man!after that we went to tm ntuc to get the get ice cream i've been carving for..sadly enuff is nt there..n we went to eastpoint ntuc,hopefully the ice cream is there bt is nt there..so i get myself 'yam-yam'n n a sweet n darling get a sweet to..we were so lazy to get hom,so we eventually hang out n sit at a corner n we r lyk talkin abt our primary sch life n the precious moments n we also thinkin of next year..we really haven't been out for dam long time...n all the moments we had in our primary sch life n the guys..it is memorable man...smtg 4 sure i mizz my primary sch life man!!it is alwayzz full of fun...till hare then..
hastala vista baby!!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
heyyy..
y life muz b lyk tis sia!!i mean i myself don't know where to go or wat to do man?bt no oworries i 'll be free once after my Os.k i'm grateful tat i had given the oppurtunities to live in tis wurld..bt at tymes i guess don't know wat to do..what shld i do?wait for miracle to happen?yeah maybe..bt thats nt the solution man! i nid to move on wif life man! i myself shld nt give up man..i muz b strong in order to overcum all tis n i belive that tis is wat ppl cal the ups n dwn of life rite..everyting tat i had gone true or havin it nw is all makin me stronger to become a better person..theres alot to learn in life man!!4 those feel lyk jumpin dwn n kill yourselves pls don't do it coz tat nt the way...u muz overcum it bt nt by 'vanishing' yourselves..every problem thereis a solution to it man!!n wat i muz do is to find it..
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
yesterdae i went to bugis srtreet for shoppin for my sch bag..wif my bro,fhir n ain..well,by rite i'm suppose to meet someone at bugis n go shoppin' 2gather wif us but turn out to b she's nt well so its ok...after a long shoppin''for bags at the bugis strret..we made a touugh choice..well,i muz admit the bag all hav gd quality n all bt we end-up to pick tis bag very cute n nt tat onli it is 3 in 1...we really had fun shoppin 2gether n after that we had our mkn at the banquet near-by..overall,my day is gd n fun..n also i get to stay out of my hse ...which is..ya i love it..
hastala vista....
hey 2dae mornin' was lyk ok..bt it was bored..so i've decided to do a chpt of my bio hmwk bt i targetted 2 complete 2 chpts...bt sadly enough i didn't get to complete even a chpt..coz i lyk help in the kitchen wif the cookin'...den i was bein' scolded by my cuzin abt smtg n i lyk hate it..den i lyk feelin' lonely if though there is alot of ppl in tis hse..coz my mind is thinkin of 'her'..lyk frm the moment i open my eyes 2dae..i don't know y tings has been happenin' n ntg is clear.neither my heart nor my mind..
Thursday, December 4, 2008
hey,ppl... 2dae i am lykk so havin fun through out the day..eventually...in the morning i went to meet 'her' for some personal stuff or rather a 'project' we r workin on for my cuzin,zaf..Well,'her' is doin us a big favour by rite...'her' is different frm other type of guys i meet..he is such a funny,weird ,blur2 type but he is very sweet n hav alot of respect for his parents..despite of his age of 16,he still listen to them especially abt gurls..he can't go out wif gurlss.. n kindda of pity him.bt he hang out wif his fwens and all ,which my cuzin is one of his fwen...he is reallii funni and we had along chat..under the void deck wif heavy rain ,takin picture of the rain ..i mean tats so i dunno wat to say...he juz loves to help other..frankly,tis is the first tym we had such a long chat coz all tis while we play soccer and juz a say of hi and byes..the type of guy he is ,i hav never meet b4 bt he always make me laugh coz of his weirdness..we r havin tat chat coz waitin 4 zaf,after zaf had come we talk 4 awhile abt our 'project' n den we gtg so does hym...after tat we went to eastpoint to 'lepak' n look 4 bks..eat at B.K and i and zaf keeps on takin abt 'her' n also guys..man!! it funni to tink abt hym..Seriously,i've no regrets knowin hym..I'm proud to call 'her' my fwen..i'reach home ard 5 pm den my cuzin family(honeyz famili) sleeepin here until hari raya haji..dis yaer wil be different we r nt havin my dearest granma wif us...bt its alrite..life has 2 go on..the hse will b chaotic n all bt it will be fun..coz my famillii n cuzins is my wurld..nt forgettin my fwens..
done till here..
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
holaa aminggas..
Todae,wen i was sleepin my cuzin like my wake up kol 9.30am..Iwas kindda of piss..bt it ok i don't hav plan aniwayzz.so we went to parkway and get our stuff mostly hers..B4 tat we had our breakfast at kfc..smtg happen.. The person workin at the counter was ok..den i went to asko for 3 more cups of chilli bcoz they give us one tat is nt enuff..bt the person ws kindda of idiot tat give me a stack of the cups lyk 8 of dem..after eatin i giv back to the same person and sayin "xcuse me,here's the reminder cups" wif sacratism..n eventualli the person juzz smile wif a "paiseh" face..c'mon lah u wanna to mess wif me, u gt the wrong person my DEAR...
till here 4 nw..
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
hey,i juzz came back frm the shop wif ain..We had fun talkin in the rain under the umbrella and at least i've cool down a bit...We did bump into ima n she juz came back frm sch n ya i think she lyk notice me we dofferent hair style...bt its okkk..n nw i kindda of borin ya tat it..4 nw..
astalavista..
damn!! I hate them sia!!!such an idiot jerkzz!! I juzzz feel lyk wanna to scream at their faces...dah tu N.T,lps itu nk control n hack org punyer fon..Mcm sial!!Biler agaknyer aku blh kluar dari nerake ni ..Y my life is alwayzz be wif obstacles..I juzz wish i cn live in peace...bt i can't!Eh although u guys bigger then me bt that doesn't me that u guys are perfect.I juzz hate u guys..such a fagget fucker to both of u!!!
el amor o el odio
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This life is something that all of us need to go through.You know that we always have bitter and sour in life.I don't know that i've change alot because of stupid hatreed(el odio) for wanting a desperate love(el amor).Today,i tried to be good to a personn who loves me or hate me ..nothing is clear.but wat i cn tell is i just can't be bothered in life.But after talking to my closest person.my hubby.Seriously,i just can't give up'I musn't let my temper control me and i just wanna to be the not "plain rude" mumtaz.It is not easy and it can never be easy.for me to change for 2 minutes by all means..but that snt me..I'm nt a coward and stupid person to do that.I wanna to change,i want to make my life a way better one.That it,todae is the day...
thankz to my dear hubby and honey.i'm soorri guys if i hurt u guys alotbut thankz for havin faith in me...I don't know how should i thank u guys bt smtg for sure i love u guys to the core.muakzz..
buen día lleno de un montón de diversiónwelll, i just come back frm my 'lepak' with my fwen.
ain.Seriously,we hadn't not hang out for quite awhile.
Todae,we had dame fun.We went to shop for our sch
bag in 2009.Man, we r goonna to break the record..
Ya ain..!! we rules.We actually remember our primary
sch days.They were amazing...
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my very first blog
heee. . my very first blog. . hmm soo gonna update.. tired after too much editing. . bye. .
