hey,,,alrite todae was last gathering wif family before the fasting mth..ntg really much happen..in the morning did nt went to madrasah coz i was tired..so ard 10+ leave hse wif family and went to mustafa..it was fun wif my bros n their jokes and their funniness..dey nvr failed to make me laugh although they can be a pain in the neck..bt i juz love dem.love u guys..fhir and iqbal..love always...ok..den reach home almost 4pm..kinnda of sleepy and went for a a nap and i woke up lyk 6.30pm..den,had to entertain my cuzins n talk a bit wif dem..den i juz feel down..wen come to rayer talking..coz i miss my grandma..i miss her..so much...tis is juz life..i had only 1 wish..one day the Truth will b reveal abt everything..abt me n my life...idk,y i'm lyk tis..bt smtg for sure i'm goin' to strive to the end..insyaallah..i cried and i juz ....(sigh)...idk wat will happpen to my family if i wil to go frm this world...you know wat,i've gt this srange feelings tat i will be gone soon..idk y..bt if it is my tym to go,i nid to.right?the only thing tat i fear for is my death..bt b4 i go..i juz wish tat the truth wil be reveal..(tears streaming down).or maybe,my goneness, will help to reveal the truth..idk..ntg is clear..bt ya,tis is life..let ppl talk wat dey want,if dey hate me let is be,i ain't any angel afterall...its true i'm bad.. i mean its hurt bt tis is the fact..i cannot c anithing in myself,positive i mean...the only person who cn understand myself the best is me..there r something in me,tat nt all ppl know bt i know it alone..i wish miracle could happen bt i know only myself tat cld make the miracle to happen...bt i will strive for my best n i would nvr give up..i may have fail in certain things,bt tat doesn't mean i've failed in life..life has to go on..