Thursday, August 13, 2009
hey,it had been some tym since i last blogging..finally prelim is ending..2morow is only sci paper 1(chem/bio).had nt been really study through it..monday going to have my english o level oral...the tym flys so fast...i know rite nw is juz hard for me to say anything..well,ard 2 more mths is the big thing..my o'level..something for sure is that i will strive till the end..bt i muz admit something tat rite now my life realy suckz lah..seriously,wen u stay at ppl hse n nt your hse is different..i felt so ashamed lah..bt wat to do..tis is life..i hope tat on day all of my probs will go away..seriously..n i know tat i the only one tat cn make this differences in my life...rite nw,i am confused wif my feelings,i know i love hym,i guess i love hym to deeply,tat it hurts me wen he is in pain..i'm trying to get over hym since rite nw he is in a relationship wif another person..it hurts me alot.i mus admit this..tis is the biggest probs i'm trying to get rit of ..bt if he is happy wif he's relationship,den i shld juz be happy 4 hym i guess eventhough deep inside me i'm suffering..it hard to let go,bt nt lettin hym go of my life is harder..y do i had to love hym?if only he knows how deeply i love hym,i guess tat would be great..bt its ok..i wanted to gif up on hym due to his attitude and all,bt i juz can't..i feel weird if he does nt talk to me and i feel happy that if he talks to me..gosh..i don't know if he has any feelings for me,?wat a life..effy was saying tat c'mon i cannot gif up,i know i can change the fate of my famly ..bt for a fact is tat the thing tat makes me move everyday is by accomplish my Os soon..i would miss my fwen of course,,bt tat life.effy thank u so much for being there for me always and my others fwen...effy,i love u thank u for being my backbone,dear..i will always remembered wat u says..i'm juz so fortunate to have someone lyk u by myside..thank u so much,effy...
